Burning the what?

Vince, I really tried last night to burn the midnight oil, & I wanted to prove you wrong because you did not believe I could like the last time. Hahaha.  But of course, by 2AM I was still distracted by other things because I am easily amused.  Finally I turned everything off and got down to studying.  I seriously only remember reading like one line and I guess I knocked out.  Yes, I fell asleep while sitting with my Psychology book on my lap.  & to think I should not worry because I set my alarm for 7AM so I can study again, I thought wrong.  I guess I accidentally hit dismiss instead of snooze when my alarm went off & I ended up waking up at 9:45AM which gave me only time to throw on clothes and head to school to take my test. No bueno.  Anyway, I do not feel I did too hott on the test, not to worry though, I will still get my A.  Believe me sweetie.

Well here I am again awake in the middle of the night because I can never sleep. & Lately I have been doing my own thing. I have been doing a lot of thinking.  I hate not having someone to talk to at this time because it causes me to think, & sometimes I think a little too much.  So if you're awake, why not give me a call? Ha.

Anyways since Im sitting here thinking too much, here are some things I would like to say to certain people. Each one is for someone different. & pls do not get yourself all crazy thinking Im talking about you because most likely I am not.

1. You are the reason I am Happy again.

2. I could not have gotten through 2007 without you. 

3. You cannot pls everyone so stop trying so hard.

4. You think you are funny, but to me you're annoying.

5. You gave me a life changing experience last year. Thank You.

6. I cannot look at you the same anymore. I think you're full of  bullshit.

7. You confuse me so much, & I am getting tired of trying, I give up on you.

8. I think it is funny how you still believe his lies.

9. We just met & I already don't like you.  You're a sweet talker. I know someone js like you.

10. I wish I could tell you the truth, but I dont want to hurt you.

11. Quit smoking cigs, I did it.

12. You have changed, I do not like it.

13. You use to be the one I would go to, I feel like I cant go to you anymore.

14. I found a note you wrote me awhile ago, it made me miss you.

15. I cant believe you stayed up with me all night.

16. I just want you to love me back.

17. I am still waiting for your apology.

18. I fucked up, I understand if you never forgive me.

19. I am jealous of her even when I said I wasnt.

20. You make me want to be a better person. 

Maybe one day I'll have the guts to actually say how Im feeling.

Okay there so each one is for a different person, so pick and choose and believe what you want to believe is being said foryou. & who knows mayb none of them is even for you, so stop thinkin and re-readin. Hahaha.

I guess this is where I'll say my goodbye.  No I am not going to bed, I am not tired js yet.  Plans for tomorrow? School, then anything but home. Call me if you want to see me bcuz fuck, Im lonely.  

Yours Truly,

jamie lynn