L O V E.

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymor...e. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love. 

xoxo, jamielynn.

SHUT THE FUCK UP.

This is my SHUT THE FUCK UP. hahaha

1.  I thought I could trust you, but you’re just like them, you stabbed me in the back, SO STFU, I don’t want to be your friend.
2. You seem to have all the facts wrong, I wish you’d just ask me, so STFU, you don’t know what you’re talking about.
3.  YOU fucked up first, then I FUCKED up, then you FUCKED up again.  I forgave you, then you FUCK UP again.  You want me back?  STFU you’re just going to fuck up again. ha
4. You need to stop coming IN & OUT of my life like this, it is getting annoying.  I really don’t know what you want, SO STFU till you know what you want.
5. Quit trying to hide it from me, I ask you these questions cause I already know the answer to it, so STFU, I know you’re lying.  Try telling me the truth sometime, maybe I’d listen.

xoxo, jamielynn

“Truth is, everybody is going to hurt you; you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for.” -Bob Marley

RUMORS.

I love how people I don't even know has heard of me.  I love how they know stories about me that I didn't even know about myself & their always seems to be a new one.  I love how some people I do know make up stories about me that didn't happen.  OH THE RUMORS.  Makes me laugh every time. 

Strangers see you the way they want to see you.  Friends know who you really are.  So rumors that go around cant even touch me. All that matters are the people's opinions that I care about, cause those are the people who really know me.  So you all can believe what you want, but my true friends really know.

I'm so glad I  have found new people in my life that make me happy & that I still have those few close friends that still have my trust.  My life goes on, with or without you.

xoxo, jamielynn.

"Forgiveness is the choice to see people as they are now.  By bringing the past into the present, we create a future just like the past.  By letting the past go, we make room for miracles."

I Love "That Moment".

That moment when you realize all the anger and resentment you had isn’t useful and you start to let go of it, &move on with your life…  I love that moment.  I’m telling you, it does happen, it just takes awhile. (:

xoxo, jamie.

Cause you just did the impossible, gained my trust.

We get that person that we think's

gonna be that one &then once we get them it's never the same.

You want them when they don't want you,

soon as they do feelings change.

xoxo, jamielynn.

Never?

"Never explain yourself to anyone because the person who likes you doesn't need it, and the person who dislikes you won't believe it.. ."

Anyway. Fall semester, OVER. It feels weird not having to do anything.. . well I guess that means I can be social again. Hahah. Tonight was a fun night. Valencia celebrated Pablo's 22nd Birthday! I've missed him.

SORRY ITS DARK! I guess I'll just let you try to figure out whats going on in this video. lol.

Well, till next time. VEGAS in ONE WEEK <3. Yayyy.

yours truly,
jamie

More than you know?

Music always makes everything better. haha.

One test down. 3 more to fucking go. My brain feels like it's about ready to explode. Well, seee you later. Till next time.

yours truly,
jamie