Never?

"Never explain yourself to anyone because the person who likes you doesn't need it, and the person who dislikes you won't believe it.. ."

Anyway. Fall semester, OVER. It feels weird not having to do anything.. . well I guess that means I can be social again. Hahah. Tonight was a fun night. Valencia celebrated Pablo's 22nd Birthday! I've missed him.

SORRY ITS DARK! I guess I'll just let you try to figure out whats going on in this video. lol.

Well, till next time. VEGAS in ONE WEEK <3. Yayyy.

yours truly,
jamie

More than you know?

Music always makes everything better. haha.

One test down. 3 more to fucking go. My brain feels like it's about ready to explode. Well, seee you later. Till next time.

yours truly,
jamie

Fave.

One of my faves, thanks Jo !

Anyway, two more weeks. I've never been soo stressed. 4 months, 16 weeks, 120 days too late to realize I should have studied earlier. I never learn. Ha. Cramming won't be easy this time around. Not at all.

Dec. 3 : Micro Lab Practical.
Dec. 7: Anatomy &Physiology Lab Practical.
Dec. 9: Anatomy &Physiology Lecture Exam.
Dec.10: Micro Lecture Exam.

I can't wait till its all over with tho! Winter Break: Christmas, New Years, Birthdays, the Weekends, Relaxing, being with Family &Friends, I can't wait, it's calling my name already! &I'm already saying a Fuck You to the 2nd week of January because of Winter session, Fuck you Chem, &Fuck you Philosophy. Well that is all. Uhm you won't hear from me till Finals are over, so goodbye. Till next time.

yours truly,
jamie.

Word.

"a woman can handle almost anything if you tell her the truth about it, but if you lie to her, you will undermine her faith in herself, &ultimately her trust in you. Tell her the truth. Let her work it out. You can damage love &love will repair; but once you damage trust, you’ve got a rough road to walk. A lie needs support, but the truth stands alone."

yours truly,
jamielynn.

Still a woman beater.

Yours truly,
jamie.

Cause tonights gna be a good niiight.

Tonight was a good night. Cause it's nights like these that make happy. Just what I needed.

yours truly,
jamielynn.

&Sometimes...

"Sometimes the past is just something we can't let go of,
&sometimes the past is something we'll do anything to forget."

yours truly,
jamielynn.

Right side of my brian.

& I known after all this time I shoulda been usin the right side of my brain.

yours truly,
jamielynn

I know you better than that.

"And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town,

I havent seen it in awhile since she brought you down."

&I know it's tough right now, but I'll get it together.

I've been so busy. My classes are taking up so much of my time. I feel like I'm not going to get a break this semester. Blah. On Monday I had an Anatomy Physio Lab practical. Tuesday I had my Microbiology Lab Quiz. Wednesday I had my Anatomy Physio Lecture Exam, & then Thursday my Microbiology paper was due (5 pages, thanks Jess for helping). And this coming week, is a little somethin like that as well. More of Micro than Anatomy Physio tho. I got another quiz and a lecture exam. Grah. Seriously, I wake up, work, then go to school, while trying to study somewhere in between, it's like I eat, sleep, breathe A&P and Micro hahah. I am not settling for anything else but an A in these classes. My dad even noticed how exhausted I've been lately.. . I got home from work today &started studying. Unfortunately, I ended up falling asleep &had a really scary dream. And we all know I rarely even dream. Anyway, nothing interesting has been happening. I guess cause there's no time for anything interesting to even happen ha. I'm pretty boring &it's all about sacrifices right? Yeah. Hope all is well with everyone else since Ive been pretty anti social I guess you can say.

& just because I feel like it.

& it's been.. .
Couple weeks- since we last talked. Im not gna make the effort to talk to you again. Thanks for a good 5 years of always being there. I guess I'll see ya when I see ya. &I know this time is different.

Couple months- hey you, yes you, thanks for nothing. Why do you still talk to me? Well actually, question is, why do I still let you.

About 1 year- since it happened. You thought you could hide it from me, and I damn sure thought I could hide it from you. Still makes me laugh.

2 years- I still can't believe I was easily influenced by you. I still haven't forgiven myself &I still can't forget it. I never will. & I'm nothing like I used to be. Fuck you &thankyou.

3 years-since "you" made me happy again. I never told you but you really got me out of the depressed stage of my life.

4 years- since you first lied to me. You should be a lawyer, you are really good at lying. Funny how during the time I believed it.

5 years- Missing when it was THAT easyyy.

6 years &counting- I don't understand, well I guess I don't really know you anymore. When you change, or I guess become yourself again, call me? I've kinda sorta missed you.

At the same time we're still young. We have the time to realize we were wrong.

Ok, for real back to studying. OH &Nephews 1st birthday tomorrow. Yayy (:

yours truly,
jamie

ps: & if I happen to bust out in song, this is the song that will probably be comin out of my mouth. hahaha

Hello Fall.

Fall semester has begun.. . two days into it &I'm already over it. hahaha. Just kidding, kinda. I hate how much studying I already have to do, but at the same time I love it. I have this love/hate thing w/ school, but I'm sure we all doo. Anatomy/Physio II && Microbioloy. This will be a fun semester! Schedule Mon&Wed's 5:30-8:20. Tues&Thurs 5:00-9:20. All night classes, it's pretty riduclous, but I really don't mind it. I'm not much a morning person so I dont have to wake up & I have all day before class, so it's all good (except when I have morning shifts). Second day done &I still don't have my books &school supplies. Tomorrow I plan on getting all of that. Oh, I need to get a lab coat. I want a cute one, like a pink one. Hahaha! Closed toed shoes everyday.. . a dislike. Tonight I spent 5:00-9:20 listening to my teacher discuss the syllabus & rules in the lab room. She's really nice, but she can talk for days. All the things she said could have been said in 30 minutes.. . but whatever. Can't wait till things get more interesting ! Im SO ready to get my A's.

Anyway, I've been eating out so much lately &shopping alot. I really need to learn how to save money.. . sooner than later. Oh, I'm going to a Wedding on saturday! I have to learn 3 dances at this Friday nights wedding rehearsal. Fml, for not being able to attend the days the teacher taught the dances. Wish me luck, I'll mosdef need it. This Fall is going to me amazing, I can already feel it.

yours truly,
jamie

Slow Motion.

Song of the week? Sure. hahaha.

Jo, I wish AJ sang this tonight! Stupid girl. Hahaha, jk, but damn.

visit me? stupid work all week. In need of , A gno or gni. A wine&cheese night. A Pool day. A Spa night. A party. Take the pups to the park day. B-fast dates. Lunch dates. Dinner dates. Movie night. Well, somethin! Down? Ok lets. (:

yours truly,
jamie

ps: no D-land tomorrow = DP.

Weird.

So I thought I had it all figured out, but then why's it bugging me? I'm just waiting for the same thing to happen again, like it always happens. Ha.

yours truly,

jamie

&When I thought the good things were falling apart.. .

Better things are falling together. I really cannot complain right now.  I feel like everything is going my way.  &Iam actually happy.  Thank goodness, finally.  School is starting in about a week, but we all know fall semester is the best time of the year.  Not because I love fall &winter season, but because there's always something going on around this time.  Not gonna lie though, this semesters going to be hard.  Anatomy &Physio, plus Micro = hell, but I gotta do it.  I know I can, (: .  

I haven't been working much at all lately.  Well, basically this whole summer, ha.  I even took 3 weeks off pretty much.  All the managers I knew are gone, and we have three new managers.  I started working again sort of last week.. . &I got to know the new managers.  They are okay, I can deal with them.  This whole summer I've been working only 8hrs a week, or none even at times.  But it's back to reality, &my $$$ is running low.  Starting next week, going back to my usual 20 hours a week, yay.  Hahaha.  New job?  Ehh, I'm a little too comfortable with this job.  I think I'll leave this job once I get into the nursing program.  Damn.

Movin on up.  One more chance?  Okay.

yours truly,

jamie

Tomorrow I will change, &today won't mean a thing.

I think I've always made it a game to play your game. Over and over &over.

but, tomorrow's a new day &I just woke up.

So this is goodbye &hello. An ending and a new beginning.

I'm starting over.

yours truly,

jamie

ps: Don't forget to stop sometimes, &just listen to the world.. .

Guilty, caught me.

Jess: jamie are you smoking again?!

me: uhh, what?

Jess: I used your car last night. I saw your cigarettes.

me: ok yeah.

Damn, I thought I could hide it from her this time.  

But nonetheless, I'm pretty happy right now.  I really can't complain, &I really shouldn't.  Hopefully there won't be any bumps on the road for awhile, because I'm doing just fine.

yours truly,

jamie

Sunday Morning.

Who knew. Had a family party Friday night because New Zealand relatives are here. I sat at the table with all of my cousins feeling as old as can be. Each and every one of them younger than me. Listening to them talk, &stories they wanted to tell me, from youngest being 7 to the oldest being 18. Me looking at each of them and thinking I acted exactly like that when I was that age. It's crazy to think, but true. We ended up staying up till almost 5am reminicing about "the good old days." I love how close I am to my family, from it being to my nieces, nephews, cousins, uncles, aunts, & grandparents. I love how huge my family is and I can't imagine not being close with them. That would be a horrible thought. Family makes everything so much better.

yours truly,
jamie

ps: And I would gladly hit the road, get up and go if I knew
That someday it would bring me back to you.

Nothing like listening to Maroon 5 before you go to sleep, goodnight.

I guess I'll try.

I feel like I'm just kind of expected to be a happy person, because hardly anyone ever sees me get mad, upset, or whatever. So when something does make me mad, I just make myself believe it's not a big deal, and move on. But that little bit of anger is still there, and every time something else makes me mad, a little more gets added. Eventually it's not a little bit of anger anymore, but a lot. And then an outburst happens, and usually it's with the wrong person who doesn't deserve it.

I should just let someone know if they make me mad, instead of them making me mad one too many times, and then I end up blowing up in someone elses face.

I guess I'll try.

yours truly,
jamielynn

This times different.

Yeah, I always seem to think that. But now it's back to the way it was & I don't know what I still see in you.

Song seems appropriate, hahaha.

yours truly,
jamielynn

Rollercoaster.

Im such a roller coaster, one day I'm up and the next thing you know I'm down. Lately tho, I've been more up than down, maybe because there's only two more days and summer schoool will be OVER. I'm so excited you have no idea. I've been spending the past two days at Barnes kinda sorta. I'm not ready for the lecture part of the exam, but I'm mosdef ready for the lab practical part. Tomorrow's a new day, I'll get it done.

Quick update of my Tuesday.
-School for 40 minutes.
-Cleaned house.
-Took a nap, but nap got interrupted.
-a quick smoke break @ Barnes.
-Ate @ Daphne's Greek Cafe w/ Hazel &Jeff.
-Studied @ Barnes w/ Kim, Bam, &Bryan.
-home sweet home.

well, till next time.

yours truly,
jamielynn

ps: we'll make amends if you admit it.

Is it fear?

I have this fear that if I will never be able to love someone. That somehow, some way, I will mess it up. That no matter how hard I try, I will mess it up. Sometimes I can feel myself start to care for someone and I can also feel myself preparing to run. Run until I can't run anymore. Until my legs stop working and my lungs stop breathing. To run to a place where no one or nothing can touch me. I have this fear that someone will love me, but not LOVE me. You know what I mean? It's like, someone can totally love you, your company, your mind, and everything about you. But they're not in love with you. I've been hurt as many times as the next person. It's a part of human nature and everything that we are. Sometimes, I sit and wonder to myself. "Would I do it all over again?" But I couldn't go back, wouldn't go back. I don't want to ever feel the fear of falling ever again. That sounds so dumb and naive in a way. Why would someone be so afraid? So afraid. I'm afraid that I will love someone who doesn't love me back. Afraid that I will lose myself, who I am. Afraid that I will learn to breathe with them and then forget how to breathe on my own. &Sometimes I ache. From past bullshit? From missed oppurtunities? From regrets? From mistakes? Who knows. But I ache. It feels like a missing piece.

yours truly,
jamielynn

Fuck the what happened.

Remember all those times I swore I needed you? Well consider them lies, because here I am without you.

yours truly,
jamie

Because I can.

Song that's been stuck in my head for the past 2 weeks now.. .
seems appropriate.


5 more days and summer school will officially be OVER. Then I get 2 weeks off to do who knows what, and then hello fall semester. Ha. I have so much studying to do for my lab practical & final lecture exam, but here I am finding the time to say a little somethin somethin, whether you wanna read it or not. Finally went back to work today, after like 2 weeks.. . ohh that was a good vacation. Felt like I was working in slow motion today. Requested 2 weeks off work because my relatives from Texas came to visit. Too many family parties, plus Vegas means I gained some weight, but shit I had amazing meals everyday. I've been wanting to upload pictures for the past week now, but somehow I misplaced where I put the cord so I cant do that, fuck. Yeah I rarely use my camera, but I finally put it into use for my Texas relatives. I think I'll go to best buy soon or somethin and find a cord so that I can upload pics. Pictures will be up ASAP.

What have I been up to lately? Pool/spa & drinkin& smokin, pretty much. Oh and if not that, I'm home studying(which is usually what you'll find me doing =/). Monday & Tuesday tho this week was ridiculous, felt like a Friday, Saturday if you knoww what I mean. Ha. Less that 5 days, I can't wait! I'm over it.

Well, till next time.

yours truly,
jamie

ps: We finally got to hang out w/ CD (coffee danny) on thurs night! Mission accomplished.

We'll find the reason's why.

&&I am backk.

It's funny how so much has changed, but there's certain things you know will never change. The people you'll always go back to, the people you know will always be there in the end. There's those people you can go months without talking to, but in the end you know you can trust them more than you can trust the people you've been hanging out with lately. It's weird &I don't even know if I am making sense. Whatever, hahaha.

I am a very lucky girl, and I take for granted how lucky I am and how thankful I really should be. I found out things about my cousin and about everything she’s been going through. It made me realize how thankful I should be and hopefully never will be put in a situation like that. I need to stop stressing and getting mad about the simple things, the stupid things, because other people are going through so much more. It makes me feel dumb for complaining about my stupid shit. I’m thankful for everything in my life, I lost focus on the good things, but I just checked back in. Helloo, I am back.

yours truly,
jamie

Straight up.

yours truly,
jamiecakes.

Family.

cousinnnns <3.

I'm sad spring breaks over. It wasn't long enough.. . now back to reality.

yours truly,
jamie

ps: stop being such as asshole, thankssss.

Update kinda not really.

Had a lunch date w/ the babies last week. <3 themm.
&& as of April 5, another new addition to the family, Ray Steven Guadron Jr. has entered the world. haha yayy.

straight up g's. hahaha









The end.

April 3rd. Pat's party.
April 4th. Jill's party.
April 5th. Too tired.
April 6th. Vodka pong? @ mi casa.
April 7th. Welcome home parentals.

yours truly,
Jamie

Well.

Ha, I think you just want to be missed.
So call it quits or get a grip.

Yours truly,
jamie

Gahhhhhly.

Yeah youuu really make my day. (:

yours truly,
jamie

ps: please pray for my mom! she's having surgery tomorrow.

Booger Bear again.

You can't tell me my cousins baby isn't the cutest thing you've ever seen. Come on.. . hahaha, I loves him. laksdfj. hahaha.

I've been sick since Wednesday! Can I get better already, geezus. Being home for the past couple days has been no bueno. I need to get out, but once I'm better. I have a feeling this coming week is gna be a good one, why? Because Tin's homeeee! bahaha. Okay, till next time.

yours truly,
jamie

Bad day.

I gots the sniffles. To make things worse, I got my test back in Psych 135. I missed 5 questions on the scantron. For the written part, FML. I somehow, skipped two pages, and lost 20 fucking points! I have no idea how I missed those two pages, wtf. I'm so mad at myself. If I got those 20 points, which I know I woulda if I did those two pages, I coulda got a 93%. I didn't miss a single point on the written part, except those two fucking pages I missed. How the fuck did I do that. UGH. idk idk idk, I guess thats what I get for not checking if I did everything. Bah. =/. But, to make things better went to Corner Bakes w/ Joleena, Jill, Ryan, & Christian. Ryan was on some kind of sugar high from skittles? hahaha who knows. It was good. OH OH, I am happy about the Bio test I took yesterday tho. Jo had a test from last spring & tell me why the teacher would use the EXACT same test. Passed that test with flying colors. Fashoo. Can't wait to get that test back. Oh that will make me very happy. Well I'm going to take a nap, and I hope magically somehow I'll wake up feeling better. Goodnight, I mean goodafternoon.

yours truly,
Jamie

Word.

Uhh, what can't you find on youtube? hahaha.

loves Julien.

OK F.R.I.E.N.D.S






hahaha, late.

yours truly,
jamie

April.

Can it be April already? Seriously, I can't wait any longer. Spring break needs to come faster.

yours truly,
jamie

ps: and it keeps getting better, fuck.

Blast from the past.

Tomorrow, I have to deal with a situation that happened in the past, yet again. I'm scared to death.

Yours truly,
jamie

Got till it's gone.

Don't it always seem to go,
that you don't know what you've got till its gone.

your truly,
jamie

ps: and here we go againn. and again.

ooVoo.

The next best thing to Ichat. I guess its whats "IN" right now. bahaha. Get one. Yes I was against ooVoo, but I got easily influenced into getting one. Thanks Joleena for making me get one. I now enjoy it.



hahaha.

yours truly,
jamie

ps: jo, I know you'll read this. I totally gave up in studying. I say we have a quick study sesh before class starts at 745am. Kill me. I'm going to sleeeep. Remind me to look for where the firer extinguisher is. Goodnight fellow bloggers and readers.

oh ps2: NO not playstation 2. haha. Uhm, I'm in for a busy a busy weekend, bcuz I got two exams coming up next week. Fuck.

Why.

I reallly don't even know why we still talk.

Yours truly,
Jamie

ps: thank goodness for class @11 on Mondays. Stupid sleeping habits of mine. Fuck.

Juicy.

Yay my necklace came in the mail today! Im so happy, I love it. Hahaha. So anyhoo, Today was real boring. I woke up kinda early, more early than I would like. But I got woken up by a phone call from my dad telling me my car needed service and I need to take it to the car dealership. Bah humbug. I was real cranky, and he also told me I couldn't bring it to the one here in SCV, no I had to go somewhere farther. Ugh. So I was bored as fuck at the dealership and it took longer than I expected. When I got back to SCV, I ran some errands, and realized Im not as poor as I thought. Haa. When I got home, I cleaned my room. Felt good. Haha. Oh did I mention Jessica is taking the Highlander back? Well she is, and I can't do anything about it. Hello Camry, you are mine yet again. I don't really care, but I just like being higher off the ground. lol. Well church bright and early tomorrow, then works 2-6pm, then gots to catch up on homework. I'm kinda sleepy, and I have nothing else to say. So byeyeyeye.

Yours truly,
Jamie

Nothing Better.

I don't have a MAC, but look what my DELL can do. HAHAHA. No worries tho, I can always use Jessica's mac, geezus people. (: Anyway, I can't sleep like always. I'll tell you about my Thursday. Alarm clock went off at 7am, and I kept hitting snooze till it was 730am. Hahaha. Got ready and such and headed for school. Met with Joleena down by the football field where we began our usual LONG walk to get to class. It's only the second week, but I thought I'd be use to the long walks by now, but no, Im still out of breath, dying. hahaha. Maybe since Im givin up cigs for lent I'll be able to breathe better during those long walks? Who knows. lol. Oh I gave up bud too. ahaha. Sounds good to me. Anyhoo. First class was Psych 135 which technically is inferential statistics. Im sure it's way better than stats class. We took our first quiz, and Im almost positive I got an A. weeee. Then came Psych 172, which is Human Development. We take so many notes in this class, I should bring my laptop. After class went home real quick to change into lame work clothes. Decided to be late to work bcuz I was really hungry, so I ate rice and longanisa. Im not sure if thats how you spell it, but it was yummy... hahahahaha. Went to work, and oh boy do I love work when Jon's there. It was real slow today, I basically just stood for 6 hours. I didn't do much at all after work. Went straight home, had awkward conversations with my dad. Watched the Lake show, yada yada yada. Now Im here, awake as can be. So to end this lame blog of the day... I was going thru Dawson Creek quotes, so I'll leave you with a quote.

There are certain people who are not meant to fit in your life, no matter how much you want them to be.

Yours truly,
Jamie

If you don't like me

Remember it's mind over matter.
I don't mind, and YOU dont matter.
haha, idk.

I've made mistakes in my life, but I've learned from my bad choices and even though there are some things I can never get back and people who will never be sorry, I'll know better for next time.

yours truly,
jamie

Pain.

Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we're wired that way. Because without it, I don't know maybe we just wouldn't feel real.

I take in as much good as I can get because it doesn't come around nearly as often as I wish it did. But anyway, I guess good things aren't always what they seem. Too much of anything, even love, is not always a good thing. Right?

Yours truly,
Jamie lynn.

Haha.

Should of known what I was getting myself into. Glad to know it was over before it even started. Haaa.

Anyway, thank you all for the birthday greets, I LOVE YOU. I really didn't do anything for my birthday. Just went shopping, then went to San Bernandino at my cousins house. It was a good birthday. I am finally 20 years old. One more year till the big 21. HAHA. I got the Juicy necklace I wanted. (: and my dad got me a laptop finally. Mhmmm. Two more weeks till Jess turns 21. Ready to party? I am. Bahaha. Well that is all for now. It's a gloomy day today cause of the weather, and uhh I have to catch up on homework and reading. So back to reality. Find me.

Oh, I'll leave you with something my cousin over heard at the coffee bean.

kristle (3:57:35 PM): the healthiest breakfast is a blowjob.
kristle (3:57:58 PM): it comes with a sausage, two nuts, and a protein shot!
bahaha. ok bye.

Yours truly,
Jamie lynn.

ps: LAKE SHOW. weeeeeee.

One way or another.

I'll figure it out. I WILL.

Being in the same classroom from 9:30-12:30 is no buenoo. I get uncomfortable in my seat. Anyhoo, went to the counseling office after class and my GPA's getting way up there. (: Insurance is going down for me. A good GPA means lower car insurance. Wonderful. What else, uhm me and Jessica switched cars again. Well just for this week. I won't be getting the highlander back till then. Driving the ship Camry has been fun. The Camry got a flat tire, so now there's some random tire on it, till my dad changes it. That's pretty much why we switched cars, my dad didn't want her driving the Camry around LA with the spare tire till its fixed. So its 3 pretty tires, and 1 really hideous tire on the Camry. You should see it. And there's this bright green thing on it too, IDK what it is tho. I haven't really taken the time to really look at the bright green thing on it. So if you think you see me driving, check for an ugly tire with a bright green thing on it, and that's for sure me. HAHA. Speaking of cars, tires whatever, I totally saw a car accident happen right in front of me on my way home. Stupid driver switched lanes, not checking her blind spot and hit the car next to her, which caused the other car to run into a pole. BOY was it intense. Ugh accidents asdklfja, and that is the reason I don't like to drive. If I didn't have to drive, I wouldn't, but HEY im sure all of us wouldn't drive if we didn't have to, right? Ehhh.

OH, and my dad's finally getting me a laptop tomorrow. Woohoo. Jessica can officially have her MAC back. Not that she'll even use it... hahaha. I am going to take a real long nap. I am putting my phone on silent. Goodnight, I mean, goodafternoon?

Plans for tonight, I'll be in the Burbank area. Byeyeye.

yours truly,
jamie lynn.

Not the same.

I feel like Im going back to how I was before.
And I don't think that's a good thing.
I act like Im happy, in hopes that maybe if I do that, I'll start believing I really am happy. So far, it's not working. Who am I kidding anyways? Well, at the moment I am grateful to have those certain someone's who make my days a little bit better.

To you: Knowing me, I'll probably find a reason to leave. Im already starting to. Im never satisfied and I find everything wrong in a situation SO I can give myself and excuse to leave. I am difficult. You don't have to tell me twice.

Anyway, today was okay. Woke up bright and early at 6:00am. Lab at 7:45am is ridiculous, but HEY you gotta do what you gotta do. I got out at 12:30pm and went home. Took a really good nap, but got woken up by a certain someone calling me. It's ok, I didn't wake up cranky. Haha. I had more homework than I expected, but I like that better, it kept me busy. And once I finished homework, it was time for the Lake show. Sorry Golden State Warriors! (: Now here I am, but I really should be doing some studying. School is school and it's my time.

See you when I see you, Im still here, if you need me.
yours truly,
jamie

I tried

But I never been good at saying goodbye.

Yours truly,
Jamie

Valentine's Day.

I hope everyone has a wonderful V day. (:

Yours truly,
jamie

Who's counting.

And who's counting, but I know at least a thousand times
I let you know I'm here for you, care for you.

yours truly,
jamie

Blah.

asdfghjkl; makes me happy. (:

Yours truly,
Jamie

ps: I got an A in my math class over winer sesh. woohoo

Spring Semester '09

If you wanted to know my schedule, well so far. I might be adding another class. Who knows.

Monday: Bio 107 11:10-12:30pm

Tuesday: Psych 135 9:30-10:50am
Psych 172 11:10-12:30pm

Wednesday: Lab 7:45-10:45am
Bio 107 11:10-12:30pm

Thursday: Psych 135 9:30-10:50am
Psych 172 11:10-12:30pm

Yours truly,
Jamie

Cuppycake.

Hahahahaaha.




yours truly,
jamie

Loves Lighters. Haha.

Yours truly,

Jamie

Because I can.

I wish I could fall asleep easily. BUT no.

How much longe​r until​ your birth​day?​
I'll be TWENTY soon. VERY soon.

What is ONE impor​tant part of a relat​ionsh​ip?​
Trust.

How was your day today​?​
It was good (:

Do you fall for peopl​e easil​y?​
Not so much.

Who was the last perso​n of the oppos​ite sex (not famil​y)​ that you talke​d to?
Dexter.

What was the first​ thing​ you thoug​ht this morni​ng?​
Calling me already? It's only 625AM, NOT 630AM. haha Yeah, I want that extra 5 minutes of sleep.

Who was the last perso​n you cried​ in front​ of?
I dont remember. jk I do, but I'd rather not.

Have you ever had a best frien​d who was of the oppos​ite sex?
Fa shoo.

Has anyon​e ever seen you in your under​wear?​
Probably.

Who was last to cook for you?
Telly's. Hahaha.

What'​s the relat​ionsh​ip betwe​en the last guy/​girl you texte​d?​
Friends.

Night​ out or night​ in?
depends on my mood.

Anyon​e upset​ you latel​y?​
Myself.

What do you carry​ with you at all times​?​
Cell phone. Chapstick.

Will you be up befor​e 7AM tomor​row?​
Aren't I always?! haha

How many peopl​e of the oppos​ite sex do you fully​ trust​?​
None. ok ONE. Wait no. haha

Are there​ any stres​sful situa​tions​ in your life?​
Not at the moment.

When'​s the last time you playe​d the board​ game Clue?​
When was that Joleena?! IDK we played at Bryan's and I TOTALLY was supposed to WIN. haha.

Do you think​ you could​ live witho​ut your cell phone​?​
For a day or two.

Where​ is your dad right​ now?
Asleeeep.

Do you do your homew​ork?​
Yeah, I need too. And the reviews I don't have to do. But I do it anyway.

Have you ever falle​n aslee​p with gum in your mouth​?​
I actually don't think I have?

Do you still​ talk to the last perso​n you kisse​d?​​
Yeah.

Did the last perso​n you kisse​d have a tatto​o?​​​​
Yesm.

What was the bigge​st surpr​ise to you withi​n the past week?​​​​
How emotionally fucked up I am this week. LOL seriously.

OK goodnight.

yours truly, 

Jamie

Have you met my twin?

JK. Might as well not put these pictures to waste. We got bored. HAHAHA. Obviously.














I hope you enjoyed. Photobooth is FUN, when you're bored. haha.

Yours truly,
the wolves. the lobos.

One more.

As said on my twitter "stupid dumbfucks that cant park and end up hitting my car! fuck you. learn to drive."
SRSLY. Thank you very much.

yours truly,
jamie

ps: If you've forgotten about my twitter, find me again, http://twitter.com/jjamielynn.
have fun. MAKE ONE. (:

Donnie.

Donnie from school is my new main squeeze. Fuck you Marcus.
HAHAHA.

yours truly,
jamie

ps: If I get an A, I thank you Donnie. Ha ha ha. OH and whenever you hear Donnie, doesn't it just make you think of making the band. Loves HIM. LOL goodbye.

Can't wait.

TOMORROW: Exam #4. FRIDAY: Final.
I can't wait till it's all over. There's only so much math I can take. And oh I've passed my limit about the second week into Winter session. Hahaha. You'll probably be able to find me, once FRIDAY is done & over with. Yay for you, yay for me. Last week of Winter sesh, and in with the Spring. Im more than ready. Im not even sure what my schedule is for Spring I should probably figure that out soon. I feel like I haven't been home alot, but at the same time I feel like I don't see anyone, SO WHERE the fuck am I. I do not know. And I dont know what I am saying, maybe Im going crazy because I have math runnin thru my head all day long. Who knows. I think I need a break. And NOT just a break in math. A break in other things. OK that is all I want to say right now. Break time, and back to stuDYING.

Uh Call me, I probably won't pick up.

Yours truly,
Jamie

We've been playing games love.

I think you see me as your play thing.
Your Friday to Sunday thing.
I'm not your weekend love, your secret fuck,

Sorry no more games, love.

yours truly,
jamie

What happened.

but some days I sit &wish I was a kid again
Back in the days.. .

Yours truly,
Jamie

ps: two can play this game.

Mmm.

Rob Pattinson with that cigarette. Mmm. Straight up, I want him more than anything. Hahaha.


Yours truly,
Jamie

ps: Word.

Qwert.

Happy Birthdaay Qwert! AKA Jeremy Barlan! :) You're no longer 21, you're 22! Holay.
Just for fun. Picture.
Way back. Way back when. The only ones I found on my photobucket.



Yours truly,
Jamie

Issues.

I know that I've got issues,
but you're pretty messed up too.
hahaha, seriously tho.

phone time, then GOODNIGHT.
How I've managed to wake up for 8am class... I dont even know.
ONE more week. Im thinking positive.

yours truly,
jamie.

Be my Valentine.

Valentine's day is coming up.
GET READY for
Valentine's day for the lovahs out there.
&Single awareness day for the singlesss.

Booger bear is ready for V-day already. Are YOU?

Lovejoy, I apologize for always posting pictures of booger bear. He's js so cute, I cant help it. hahaha.

Yours truly,
jamie

Freezing.

This morning I woke up late for school. I run to my car outside. I start it up and my car was all foggy and such because it was freezing outside! So I used my windshield wipers and that's when I realized that there was ice on the window... I seriously sat in the car for about 15 minutes debating whether I should drive with the ice on there, cuz I could kinda see... hahaha or actually do something about it. I really did not want to get out of the car tho, it was js too cold. Anyway I finally decided to do something about it. My car was parked outside... and I definitely did not want to walk in the cold again, so I opened the garage and drove my car inside the garage. HAHA. Went inside, got a cup of water. (Note, it was not hot or warm because that could crack it. Hahaha) Then threw the water onto the window and the ice came off easily. Off to school I went. I was also lucky enough to get stuck behind a driver that was driving 5 miles UNDER the speed limit, which caused me to hit red lights. What a way to start off my day right?! Haha. Don't even let me get started with work. There you go.

Yours truly,
Jamie

Past it?

The past is coming back to haunt me. Ugh fuck. I have to deal with this bullshit again, and for the last time. I can't wait to officially put it all behind me.
You actuallyy have NO IDEA.

Yours truly,
jamie

Grey's Anatomy #2.

Wow, was it just me or did you cry for days in tonight's episode. Well in the end. Or maybe just maybe im js being overly emotional right now cause im on my period. We'll never know.

Yours truly,
Jamie.

ps: ABDC. watch.

Good days.

But the good days js make it worth it, for now.

Yours truly,
Jamie

Booger Bear.

4 Months, he's so cute. Yes we call him Booger bear. AKA Eugene II. haahaha. My cousin Lovejoy made such a cutsie babycakes.
1/4 filipino 1/4 guatemalan 1/2 black. Yayse. Loves him.


"I want one" hahahahaha.

Yours truly,
Jamie

Now I know.

Now I know how it feels like to deal with someone like me. Ha.

Yours truly,

Jamie

I've learned.

i've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.


i've learned that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.


i've learned that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.
i've learned that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. same for true love.
i've learned that you can do something in an instant that will give you a heartache for life.
i've learned that it's taking me a long time to become the person i want to be.
i've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. it may be the last time you see them.
i've learned that you can keep going long after you can't.
i've learned that we are responsible for whatever we do, no matter how we feel.



i've learned that either you control your attitude or it controls you.
i've learned that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.
i've learned that heroes are the people that do what has to be done when it has to be done, regardless of the consequences.


i've learned that money is a lousy way of keeping score.
i've learned that the people you expect to kick you when you're down, will be the ones to help you get back up.
i've learned that sometimes when i'm angry, i have the right to be angry, but i don't have the right to be cruel.


i've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, it doesn't mean they don't love you with all that they have.
i've learned that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them, and less to do with how many years you've lived.
i've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. sometimes you have to forgive yourself.


i've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken, the world doesn't stop for your grief.
i've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.
i've learned that just because two people argue, doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do love each other.
i've learned that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. it could change your life forever.
i've learned that two people can look at the same thing and see something totally different.
i've learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.


i've learned that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you you will find the strength to help.
i've learned that credentials on a wall doesn't make you a decent human being.
i've learned that you cannot make someone love you. all you can do is be someone who can be loved. the rest is up to them.


i've learned that no matter how much i care, some people just don't care back.


i've learned that it's not what you have in your life, but who you have in your life that counts.
i've learned that there are people who love you dearly, but just don't know how to show it.



i've learned that the people you care about the most are taken from you too soon.

yours truly,

jamie

Bitch.

Behind every bitch is a guy who made her that way.

Im sorry, most of the time.. .

Yours truly,
Jamie

Hahaha.

Lucky lovee.
Oh just putting the christmas decorations away. hahaha.

Yours truly,
jamie

Gah.

Seriously, you're the most cocky person ever. I wish I could just put you on mute sometimes. That would be nice.

Yours truly,
jamie

One more.

Hellooo Gabe Bondoc.


Yours truly,
jamie

ps: Im hungry and I feel like eating a cupcake. So much for being healthy this year.

Grey's Anatomy.

I love that show. If you happen to miss an episode don't worry you can always watch it online.
Go for it. http://abc.go.com/player/index?pn=index.

Also, One Tree Hill. Monday. I can't wait.
Obviously im bored right now.
PREVIEWWW.


yours truly,
jamie

every time i close my eyes.

uhhh, asians. hahaha. their facial expressions make me laugh. but it is good ha



yours truly,
jamie

Reminder #2.

Don't get attached.

Yours truly,

jamie.

Sprinkles.

Best cupcakes ever. :)  Goood day because I got my red velvet cupcakes. Mmm.

Anyways, because I dont wna do my homework at the moment.. . a survey for your enjoyment. ha

Let'​​​​​​​​​​​​​​s start​ it off with,​​​​​​​​​​​​​​ are you avail​able?​​​​​​
uhhhh yes no maybe so hahaha

Are there​ any stres​sful situa​tions​ in your life?​​​​​​
oh i can think of one at the moment. Ugh, why me.

Do you enjoy​ late night​ phone​ conve​rsati​ons?​​​​​​​​​​​​​​
:)

Do you dance​ in the car?
mos definitely.

Is there​ someo​ne you don'​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​t ever want to be out of your life?​​​​​​
I can think of a few.

Where​ did you get your last bruis​e from?​​​​​​
Running into something at work i believe.

Have you ever thoug​ht you were gonna​ die?
ahhhhhh.

How do you feel about​ girls​ smoki​ng?​​​​​​
HEY its been 15 days since I smoked a cigarette. 

What are you curre​ntly heari​ng right​ now?
musssicc

Is there​ a perso​n of the oppos​ite sex who means​ a lot to you?
yayse.

What brand​ of digit​al camer​a do you have?​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​
mmm goood question lol i actually dont know and i dont wna check.

Would​ you rathe​r marry​ a footb​all playe​r or a baske​tball​ playe​r?​​​​​​
basketball playaaa fashooo.

When was the last time you saw your dad?
yesterday?

Do you drink​ soda?​​​​​​​
i try not to.

Has anyon​e ever sang to you?
mhmm, cute.

Has anyon​e ever given​ you roses​?​​​​​​​​​​​​​​
<333.

Whens​ your next vacat​ion?​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​
who knows.

Do you worry​ your ex will move on & be happi​er with anoth​er perso​n?​​​​​
doesnt matter.

Are you reall​y happy​ or are you just sayin​g that?​​​​​​​​
im really actually happyy.

When do you think​ you will see your close​st frien​d?​
not sure.

What was the last reaso​n that you cried​?​​​​​​
idnooo.

Does it take a lot to make you cry?
pretty much.

You have sibli​ngs over the age of 21?
nah.

What is your favor​ite kind of weath​er?​​​​​​
vampire weatherrr.

Are you a loud perso​n?​​​​​​​
sometimes.

Would​ you trade​ lives​ with a famou​s perso​n?​​​​​​​
maybe for a little bit.

Are you weari​ng any jewel​ry?​​​​​​
earrings.

Do you have a hard time admit​ting you'​​​​​​​re wrong​?​​​​​​​​
sure.

Do you think​ you have made a diffe​rence​ in anyon​e'​​​​​​​​​s life?​​​​​​
i hope so.

What shoul​d you be doing​ right​ now?
homeworks.

When was the last time you slept​ on the floor​?​​​​​​​
hmmm. when i was in vegas.

Has anybo​dy ever given​ you butte​rflie​s?​​​​​​
why would someone give me butterflies thats weird. LOL

Will you have a valen​tine this year?​​​​​​​
willlll i?! haha

Where​ is the perso​n you gave your heart​ to?
im pretty much heartless. 

Are you waiti​ng for somet​hing?​​​​​​
not really.

Has anyon​e ever told you they want to spend​ the rest of their​ life with you?
lets not.

Do you think​ you' ll be in a relat​ionsh​ip 2 month​s from now?
oh what the.

Who in your life has hurt you the most?​​​​​​
haaaa.

Would​ you date someo​ne 2 years​ older​ than you?
sureeewhy not.

Is there​ anyth​ing that you are cravi​ng right​ now?
I was craving sprinkles but i got emm :)))

What'​​​​​​s your hair look like today​?​​​​​​
fucking gross.

Where​ is your most tickl​ish spot?​​​​​​
im not ticklishhh hahaha

When you say you don'​​​​​​t care,​​​​​​ do you mean it?
sometimes.

When you wake up, what'​​​​​​s the first​ thing​ you do?
hit snooozeee.

Hones​tly,​​​​​ what'​​​​​s on your mind right​ now?
nothing.....

Do you like the perso​n you are becom​ing?​​​​​?​​​​​?​​​​​?​​​​​

i think so....

yours truly,

jamie

Reminder.

Never take a math class over Winter Sesh.

Anyway, chocolate chip waffles from Telly's make me happy.  Today was too long.  I am not looking forward to class tomorrow, I gots a TEST. :(  Well time to study.  Catch you later.

Yours truly, 

jamie

ps: because of joleena, i now have a twitter account. thanks girl, it is addicting. haha.  follow me and everythin is alright.  

http://twitter.com/jjamielynn

follow her too.
http://twitter.com/joleena

have fun.

Snoring.

I just got home.  Amber's snoring and  I can't sleep.  Wonderful.  Plans for tomorrow, church, workski, homework, study, read Eclipse, sleep early. ha.  See you never,  I mean soon.  

Work schedule this week.  Visit me? haha

011109.Sunday 12-5pm.

011209.Monday 11-4pm.

011609.Friday 1-6pm.

011709.Saturday4-9pm.

Yours truly,

jaym

Mhmm.

I'll tell you who I don't want to meet...the guy who always says "when life hands you lemons, make lemonade". Well life better also hand me some sugar, water, and ice, because if not, that is going to be the worst lemonade ever. When did pure lemon juice equate to lemonade? ha.

As of right now, things are really good.. . and that scares me a little bit because it seems to me that whenever I like where I am at and Im happy, something goes wrong, but we'll see. We will see.

Besides, maybe this time is different.

Yours truly,
Jamie

ps: remember Lucky? jessicas dog.  yeah we shaved him yesterday kinda sorta. Here he is, Lucky with hair. haha.  I'll be sure to take a picture soon so you can see how he looks now.

Amber's next. Kawawa :( haha.

Winter Sesh '09.

Math Monday-Friday 8am-11am. Gotta do what you gotta do. 

I should learn how to sleep early.. . I don't even know how I woke up this morning.  Went to bed around 4am, and woke up at 630am. Gahh,  horrible. hahaha.  Im going to try to sleep a little bit earlier than usual.  One month, monday - friday 8 am.  I can do it.

Well I got things to do still, like homework.  I'll probably get distracted soon enough tho. :)

yours truly,

jamie

Ohh myyy.

Ahhhh, we're good. :)

Yours truly, 

Jamie

ps: schoool tomorrow, kill me. 

New Moon.

All I've been doing this winter break is reading.  I finally had the time for peace and quiet.  Finished New Moon, yeah I know it took me forever, but I got pretty busy with school and work.  Eclipse here I come.  I am still Team Edward, even after New Moon, but I did find love for Jacob tho, Im not gonna lie.  Hahaha. Yeah, pretty much.  Anyways, I haven't been very social these past weeks.  Ehhhh, sorry.  Winter session starts this monday January 5th.  Im going to try to crash a class.  And if worst comes to worst, I get a whole month off!  Well that doesn't sound half bad, but I really would like to take a class during winter session.  Find me, I guess.

Yours truly,

Jamie

ps: here i go again, but this time it's different. or so i hope.

Mama.

i loove my mamaa.

yours truly,

jamie

Hello New Year.

What a way to start off the new year. Drunk as fuck.  I can tell it is going to be a wonderful year.  Im oh so ready.

Yours truly,

Jamie